ellipses show different kinds of emotions, of thoughts. but basically, they show uncertainties. and what am i uncertain of now? the feeling of sadness and the bad need to cry but there's just the lack of strength to do so. ergo, i now feel that i'm just not sure if i should feel sad and hurt or i just pity myself or i'm just a big heck of a pain-lover that i really love to cry.
why the hell is he ignoring me.
why the fuck is he taking me for granted.
and what pure shit am i to let myself be this way again --